Sunday, March 19, 2006

Putting it off

I've been doing everything I can to avoid the inevitable . . . having to do another paper. I've been learning the guitar, practicing bowling, writing programs, and reading a bit. All to put off doing my paper for English. Interestingly enough, I got an A on my last paper, my first in eight years or so ('course I've been out of school for at least five years in the middle). I'm perfectly capable of writing well, but let's face it, I don't like to write. Not sure why. Maybe because I'm a perfectionist, so I don't like doing crappy work; however, writing isn't something I can do easily. Maybe I'm just not much of a communicator. Maybe I just lack the energy. Maybe I lack the discipline.

The past week has sucked. I've been recovering from some sort of stomach-flu, so I've been rather unproductive this week. Also my b-day came and passed, and for some reason it always depresses me a little. It's been cold. I hope the weather warms up soon.

Sunday, March 05, 2006


Actually, yesterday I ripped open a big bloody wound on my left finger, so I found it hard to type without pouring blood onto my keyboard. I'm trying to keep up with my blog, but there are always obstacles, whether it be general laziness, the fact that I should prioritize finishing my next essay for English, or a lacerated finger. But I'm trying to be more disciplined about filling my blog.

What I meant to say was that lately I've been wanting to sleep all the time. Just the past two days I've logged at least 22 hours of sleep. It just seems like there's no point being awake--if I'm not working or doing school related stuff, what's the point? An old friend of mine postulated that maybe the need for excessive sleep was due to a need to escape from the rigors of life. That is, if you are depressed, then maybe going to sleep is a way to escape the depression, at least for the time being. Am I feeling down? Perhaps so.

In other news, I actually found my television remote the other day. It was in my backpack. Apparently I thought it was a calculator, so it's been in there for a few weeks. Ironically, now that I have my remote back, I still have not been watching TV. Yes, I've decided that excessive television viewing might not be such a productive endeavor. So I've quit the TV. I'm too busy with work and school in any case.

There are many things that I want to do, but few goals that I actually achieve. I've been a little pensive about expressing them, however. I'd like to say that I follow through on whatever I say I'm going to try, but realistically it is hard to actually do what I set out to do. Nevertheless, I think it is better to make too many goals and fall short than to not make any goals at all. With that being said, here are some goals of mine right now:

  • Learn the guitar (so I can actually play the guitar I got for christmas)

  • Read the Da Vinci Code before the movie comes out this summer

  • Get a new computer (so I can actually use the iPod I got for christmas)

  • Write a big assembly language program for fun (am I crazy?)

  • Finish learning HTML, or at least learn some web-based language fully

  • Blog at least once a week (not too much to ask, right?)

  • Use myspace more than almost never (probably will not happen until a) I get a new computer that doesn't crash there and b) I have some free time (summer) )

  • Join a bowling league in the summer and next fall

Speaking of bowling, I've just been appointed the new anchor for my team for this week. Why? Well, I've been red hot lately, and I've generally done well under pressure. I've never actually been the anchor before (I've been the de facto anchor a few times though) so we shall see how that turns out.


I want yo sleep

Axk, I can'y yape wirh a bloody lefy finbgwr I hgot from work . . .

Lately UI've been wnating to jusy slep aal tje time, I don'r know why. I tjhink maybe I'm tryin to dull that pain from lifrem , well maybe /I'll finish this post anothr dya.

Friday, February 17, 2006

Career high & the backstory

This past Sunday I achieved a career high in bowling:
214 217 225

That's a 656 series, a personal best!

Of course, since I'm so bad about updating my blog I've neglected to mention that I'm part of a Sunday night bowling league, so perhaps I should fill in a little backstory.

Back in November, I was invited to join a team in a Sunday night mixer league. In fact, I was a replacement player. The team I'm on originally consisted of two couples. However, one couple broke up and (in a scenario eerily similar to that of an upcoming movie "The Break Up" starring Jennifer Aniston and Vince Vaughn) no longer could stand each other enough to stay on the same team. So I joined.

I think it was a rough time for me. It's hard to describe, but after a drinking session that ending up as a puking session sometime in September (I don't remember when exacty. Heh, maybe I should of blogged it), a food poisoning bout which reminded me how much I hate throwing up, and a rather vexing series of events late October, I think I just withdrew from society and kept to myself. I focused on school and bowling from then on. (I also pretty much quit thinking about my blog.)

So anyway, I did my usual routine when I start bowling in a new league, experiment! I tried to incorporate a new delivery, hoping to increase my strike potential. (I should mention my normal 'style' is that of an accurate spare shooter averaging around 150 - 180. But I want more strikes, dammit!)

The results were disasterous. With my new 'release' I couldn't hit water if I fell off a boat! I way spraying the ball all over the place. How was I supposed to get more strikes if I couldn't hit the pocket? So, after about a month, I gave up my experimentation in order to try to recover my old release. It took a month or so to 'fix' my stroke. Then after that I've bowled with my old stroke for just under a month (finally getting my average above 150), which leads to this past Sunday.

I was on fire. I could not be stopped. I . . . was doing my math homework between frames!? See, I had a math test the next day, so I HAD to finish up my homework. It probably wouldn't have turned out like this, but I was swamped with homework all semester and work was overworking me (working me on Sunday mornings, too!)

I think my math homework was the key. I went up to throw my ball, then sat down to focus on my (incredibly difficult) math homework. This kept me from thinking and obsessing about the bowling match. I was completely relaxed every frame because I wasn't thinking. Maybe this affirms the saying in Bull Durham: "Don't think. It could only hurt the team." Plus, I was mad. That helped. Despite my 214 and my 217, we lost both games! (The first game by 3 pins, the second by 37. The other team was really good.) So despite my sore wrist which I tweaked, and my weariness from having worked all day, I threw my best game the third game. There's no way in hell I'm going to bowl this well and have my team go 0 - 7! It turned out that my three strikes in the 10th frame was key, because our anchor split in the 10th and our opponent's anchor struck out. We ended up winning by only 44 pins, and we won total pins by 4. We went 3 - 4. Not bad considering the first two games.

The question is, how do I simulate what happened last Sunday? More math homework? And I think it's ironic that the team I'm on now that once consisted of two couples now consists of four singles. The other couple broke up, but they're both still bowling for the team. How fragile relationships are.

Anyway, that's all for now. Maybe I'll start keeping up with my blog. But I'm not going to hold my breath.

entertainment problems

I lost my remote control which sucks because how am I supposed to properly watch tv? In any case, I probably shouldn't be watching so much because I have plenty of homework to do.

I'm actually going through a sort of post-super bowl withdrawal. Without football, I'm really not that interested in sports. I've replaced my normal habit of listening to sports talk radio with more music content. However, the transition has been somewhat unsatisfactory. Between mediocre song selections and the commericials, my patience with 'radio' has worn quite thin. (It's a bad sign that I turn to listening to classical music in my frustration.) I actually did receive an ipod for christmas, but to my horror I find my old piece of junk computer is not compatible with it! I hope to fix this problem soon.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Procrastination Theory

All of a sudden my free time went to oblivion! :(

Anyway, since I've started this semester I've had nothing but work work work to do. It's driving me crazy. For example . . . I have to revise a paper, do at least one assembly program, and do my ridiculously hard to understand math homework that I can't put off any longer because the test is coming up by Monday. And I have no days off from work. This semester is the first time I decided to take three classes, and fate would have it that none of them would be easy. Meanwhile my has continued to beg me to work an extra day for the past month.

So obviously I should get started on my homework right now to get it out of the way, right? Yet for some reason I have this strong urge not to do any of this right now. It makes perfect sense to do what I need to do now, but my brain insists I can leave it for awhile. Hmm, procrastination is powerful indeed . . .

I found an interesting essay about procrastination here.

In the meantime I will either a) waste more time doing nothing, b) actually do some homework, c) just go to sleep, or d) do something even less productive.

Monday, December 12, 2005

tsk, tsk

(I probably shouldn't take quizzes whilst angry)

This Is My Life, Rated
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Interestingly enough, I was only upset for a few days over something not worth the energy spent. However, I seem to have been somewhat preoccupied with a variety of other trifles. I may yet think about updating this, but I'd better wait until after finals are over. Until then...

Sunday, December 11, 2005

The Moon Card
You are the Moon card. Entering the Moon we enter
the intuitive and psychic realms. This is the
stuff dreams are made on. And like dreams the
imagery we find here may inspire us or torment
us. Understanding the moon requires looking
within. Our own bodily rhythms are echoed in
this luminary that circles the earth every
month and reflects the sun in its progress.
Listening to those rhythms may produce visions
and lead you towards insight. The Moon is a
force that has legends attached to it. It
carries with it both romance and insanity.
Moonlight reveals itself as an illusion and it
is only those willing to work with the force of
dreams that are able to withstand this
reflective light. Image from: Stevee Postman.

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Sunday, October 30, 2005

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I'm pissed...

Life just sucks. I quit. I should explain, but I won't because it's pointless...